Do we still believe in miracles? July 6, 2008

Remember when we were little and we believed that we could become rock stars, famous actors/actresses, major league baseball players, or marry Donny Osmond?

We believed without hesitation that anything was possible.  That the world worked for those that dreamed and dreamed big.  We believed in astronauts, race car drivers, and finding our soul mates.  But recently I see that miracles, dreams, and wishes have been taking a big hit.  Of course, there are troubling times afoot, but isn’t there always?  What has happened to our sunny and optomistic outlook at life?

I must say that I have had my share of stumbles and trips on the path of believing in miracles.  Starting over in my life at a later age with two kids, a dog, mortgages, and wrinkles swayed my belief that miracles could occur.  Of course, it would have been nice if my fairy godmother had arrived and waved her magic wand to create the life of my dreams, but that wasn’t the case.  In fact, I had to discover that wand myself and create the magic myself.

And there in lies the belief being shaken to the core.  Miracles are supposed to appear out of nowhere.  Miracles are supposed to be big and monumental.  Miracles and wishes are supposed to be sparkly and covered with fairy dust.  That’s the way we were taught, right?

But I discovered that miracles are in the little things.  They are the moment when you realize that you paid all your bills and still have some left over in the bank account.  They are when you spend a Saturday night on the couch watching a good movie with a bowl of popcorn and are smiling the whole time.  They are the moments when you look at what you have learned in the past day, month, year, or decade and see the growth in yourself.  They are finding a ten dollar bill in your pocket you didn’t expect.  They are when you hit all the green lights trying to get to work in the morning.  These are little and unexpected miracles.

And miracles change all the time because what you want in your life changes.  When I was 12 I did want to marry Donny Osmond….not now!! However, I think the basis of all the miracles and dreams that we made when we were 12 or at whatever age we are is the same…..we want to be happy!

Happiness is the true miracle we seek.  All the things we want or dream about we do so because ultimately they will make us happy!  So, I do believe that miracles still exist because happiness exists.  What we need to do is to change the miracle of our lives to be the happiness that exists.  And instead of wishing for the red Porsche Carrera….wish for the happiness that freedom, speed, and the color red provide.  That is a miracle that is obtained easily….simply smile!

So yes, we still believe in miracles….we simply have to redefine what constitutes one today!

Peace and Blessings,

Lorena

It’s been a long time…. May 15, 2008

…since I’ve written. I’m not sure that I have any amazing excuse except life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. However, I will say that while I am a writer by profession sometimes that is the last thing I want to do. I think also that things in the Universe have been a bit testy lately and I have been feeling the full brunt of that energy, or lack there of.

Isn’t it interesting that sometimes in life we find ourselves in a place of simply getting through. I mean that we wake up each morning and take care of all the things we need to do like showers, clothing, breakfast, getting the kids off, getting to work, smiling, laughing, interacting with people, but it seems as though something is lacking. It’s almost as if we are on autopilot. Does this happen to you?

Well, I’ve been having a lot of this recently and it rather disturbed me as I am usually a high energy go for it kind of gal. I found that getting all the things done that I needed to do in a day was like scaling the peak of Mt. Everest. And while I accomplished all the tasks it was with much humphing and growling inside. This place began to worry me as I seemed to be simply existing in my world. That is a crime I try never to commit and so this sense of disconnect seemed truly vile and yet unsurmountable at the same time.

Therefore I decided that something must be done. Was it time to take the Suburban Cocktail of anti-depressants and mood enhancers? Was it time to move myself into something more structure and safe? Was it time to simply give it up and let things go and stop trying to take care of every single aspect of my life? This is the crossroads I found myself at. And it was in that instant that I decided that I needed to get quiet and hear myself speak. That is where the disconnect had occurred. I had gotten lost in the day-to-day and forgot to make time for myself to speak to…myself.

So the next day I took a walk. I left my iPod at home and just walked. I didn’t need to worry about the route as that was set up as always. I just walked. Felt my feet hitting the pavement. Listened to the birds squawking in the trees. Felt the sun on my face and the wind brushing my cheek. And I felt the ache in my shins and the heaviness of my feet. It seemed my legs had too become mired in the day to day and needed to be reminded about how much they loved to walk. And while walking I got still. I heard myself say….”What are you doing running around so fast and not watching where you are going?”

Not watching where I am going….hmm. That I needed to ponder. Because I wasn’t watching. Just like when you drive past your exit on the freeway cause you just didn’t see it. I had lost myself in the “things” of the world and forgotten about the “being” of the world. And in that moment as I trudged through my walk I realized how simple it was to lose the grasp of who we are and why we are here.

Today I want you to look around and see are you lost in the “things” of your life? Are you consumed with your bills, car breaking, job dissatisfaction, boyfriend/girlfriend problems, family issues, sadness, lack, etc. If so, then now is the time for you to take your “walk” and start hearing yourself. Get yourself back to who you are and the wonder of being in the moment. Of appreciating your life. This is it….right now….your life. So make the most of it!

Lorena Bathey

www.beyourfairygodmother.com