Well…I did it. I have spent the whole day today going through my closet and extracting that which I did not need, did not fit into, or had been holding onto in case someday they wanted to create a museum to me. It was hard sometimes to try on things that used to fit you great and find that they didn’t fit you at all…sometimes I couldn’t zip ‘em up. Woo…that’s a blow as any of us women can attest to. However, what I did today was show no mercy to things hanging there. I didn’t hold onto some tight fitting garments thinking, “Well I’ll lose weight and fit back into them”. No, I took a deep breath and threw anything that did not fit me right at this moment into the bag!
It was scary. It was exhausting. It was depressing. And it was freeing.
When I finished there were spaces in between the clothes. Spots to put new shoes. Drawers that were empty. There was room to move. I could see the floor. I stood back and breathed deeply! Very deeply!
I know it is hard to let go of things, especially things from our past. It feels safe to hold onto things that connect us to the someone we remember, even if we aren’t that person anymore. And yes, I’ll be honest and say that it made me sad and angry that I wasn’t as small as I was years ago. I heard myself talking down to myself, calling myself names, and even having tears come to my eyes. But I pushed through. And when I was done I felt lighter in spirit. Even more I decided that I was gonna let go of my perception of myself as I used to be and embrace the beauty that was me..RIGHT NOW! Not five pounds from now, not as I used to be, but as I am right this minute.
It’s funny how we tend to get stuck with things. How we seem to anchor ourselves down with stuff to hold our spirit in a place it more than likely doesn’t want to be. We allow junk to pile up around us and not realize or face that all that junk is really just a metaphor for the junk in our spirit. Our lives and the way we live reflect the way we feel about ourselves and how we achieve our dreams.
So today I cleaned out my closet of old clothes, emotions, and my past. I freed my world up to allow new and exciting things to come to into my life. I opened up my heart to loving myself therefore letting others love me too. I am worthy of new and well fitting clothes as well as worthy to obtaining my dreams and allowing new love to come into my life. I changed the world…my world today.
What are you waiting for….how many bags are in your closet? Why not change your world one outdated sweater at a time!
